The one day I have the motivation to scan my shit the computer is like "TROLOLOLOLOL NO." I only have 5 finished pictures worth putting up here though.

So, I graduated last night. It was a very hectic day, but nice. Now to enjoy my summer vacation and try to look for a job and practice driving.

Woke up feeling kind of sad for some reason and I don't know why. I think it's because I saw one of my two exes at graduation and texted him for the first time in months afterwards but he didn't say much to me, as usual. He was my first 'real' boyfriend , we dated for 11 months and he broke up with me over a year ago. I know I shouldn't remain hung up on him, and I'm not really, I wouldn't want to go out with him again because he's a jerk that ended up ignoring me and I have found nicer guys, but it's just sad thinking of someone who used to care who couldn't really give a damn anymore probably. Somebody that you used to think the world about ends up not giving a damn about you, or seeming like it. Maybe he has the emotional capacity of a walnut or something. It freaking hurts like a bitch still sometimes and even if I express to him it it's not going to be any good probably. I wish he could've at least said sorry or something or didn't break up with me through a text message for more closure. I feel like crying as I type this.

I used to think girls or guys who got weepy or hung up over relationships where the person obviously wasn't worth it, that was idiotic of them. But after falling in love with an idiot I now have more sympathy because I completely understand that feeling.

So, very mixed emotions. Probably ones I should definitely and completely ignore and then move on to/focus on better things, which is what I do most of the time but I have my moments. AND AT THOSE MOMENTS I MUST EXPRESS THEM TO FEEL BETTER.